The worm hole of depression

Depression is a worm hole. I used to think it was a black hole, but I was mistaken. Nothing ever comes out of a black hole. 

The way I experienced depression (and everyone’s experience will be different) is a journey mixed with periods of stagnation. It was a long dark road, but I truly believe there is a light at the base of every worm hole if you choose to seek it.

The reason I imagine depression as a wormhole is because you enter this mind spinning vortex with no light. You feel yourself spinning around and around but it is all in misery. It is easy to accept that your position in this world is set to be in the middle of this wormhole. 

I can’t see an exit, so I guess I’m stuck here!

However, this doesn’t have to be the case. Making the effort in the wormhole is unimaginably hard. To think you have no hope but still motivate yourself to move in a seemingly aimless direction is something I struggled with for so many years.

It all started with my desperation to escape. I realised, mainly through therapy, that there are other locations in this world I can be other than this wormhole. I had to travel my own journey, not knowing where it led. Through extreme effort and experimentation with different methods of recovery, I am very proud to say I escaped the wormhole.

You don’t have to stay in that wormhole, there is light that exists. Please try to find it.


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  1. UnknownJune 15, 2022 at 7:23 AM

    One of the post interesting blog posts! I'm sorry that you were stuck for so long. However, your journey to a different & better place is impressive & incredibly inspirational! The contuinued metaphor of the wormhole is excellent in explaining what depression is like. You've made so much progress! My pride in you only continues to grow! I love this so much bud!! Xxxx

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